I Love Mornings Because...

I measured my self this morning and I am thinner by 0.5 inch. I am always thinner in the morning haha! I got to do dumbells today, I finally found where my dumbells are.

I just posted in my other blog how I am taking Berocca and it got me thinking, could Berocca be making me fat?! Hm... I should not blame my vitamins but I really have not been eating too much lately so that's making me wonder. I should really get back to swimming. I have to get myself a new suit. That should motivate me enough.

I am planning to wear a pink dress I bought when I was inches thinner, I hope the dress would fit. *crosses fingers*

I decided to decrease my dumbell reps because my arms are getting too big, not nice anymore.

Still Fat. Gr!

Okay, I finally got to do crunches today. I tried doing push-ups and I can do them hehe... Well not so low yet but if I really try I think I can. I cannot find my dumbells so I will do them tomorrow. I do not think anything is happening. I am still fat says the measuring tape and the weighing scale. :)

I just feel better about myself. Maybe because I feel rested. I still have some papers that I need to read but I am going at my classic snail pace.

I think I need to get a pedicure tomorrow. I also think I need to fit my dress because it might not fit. If it does not I will have to get new shoes because I do not have black shoes to pair with my blue dress. I saw a cute pair of pumps at Zara but they are too expensive for a pair that I will not get to wear often.

I will be posting here what will happen next hehe... Need to trim my arms. Should I just get back to swimming?! Should I?!

I think I should.

But it's too cold...

So Far

My waistline is improving I think... but maybe this is because my period has just finished. i bloat back a few days later. I have not had any actual exercise for weeks. Darn!

I had a nice exercise of the soul in the last few days though. Yesterday, my mom, sister and I went to the grocery to get relief goods. It was a great feeling. Afterwards, we went to see a movie which sucked but we had fun nonetheless.

I hope to lose weight soon I will be doing my dumbells and crunches later.

At least I hope to do that *hehe*!

After the Storm...

The other day, I did not get to eat much I think because the streets were flooded and no one would deliver so I just ate rice and fish and then that night I had a piece of Goldilocks Double Dutch cake.. *bad* I ate some peanuts too, as a result my face is all pimply yesterday.

Yesterday, I had Greenwich Chicken ala King and a slice of Hawaiian Pizza and Pandan Pearl Cooler *very bad! thwaps self* for lunch (woke up too late so did not have breakfast anymore). In the evening we ate at Kalye ni Juan (my first time there) and I had Arroz Caldo and I was very much disappointed. Did not finish all of it. Really not good. I should have ordered what my sister ordered. My sister wanted to go to Dezaato Pan but they were closed so we just opted for Chocolat and I got myself Choco Caramel Cake *thwaps self again, harder this time but eats anyway haha*! And then, when I got home, I ate another Chicken ala King (Greenwich took the liberty of replacing the unavailable Baked Mac with Chicken ala King and I am the only one who eats this so... I had to finish it). It was still good though, but it's better when hot. I think that is all I ate yesterday. I have not exercised again. I will try to do this today. I will do dumbells and crunches.

Side note: It just started raining again... Hard! Please make it stop Lord. Please.

Struggling

I did not get to do my crunches and my dumbells last Thursday because I felt really tired. I went to the hospital to get myself my breast ultrasound. It was more painful than the first one, the technician was pressing the device really hard. It still hurt the day after. I hope nothing is wrong with me. After the results are released on Tuesday, I have to go and visit the surgeon and he will tell me then what I need to do about the results. I hope they will not have to cut me up. I happen to like my breasts. *vain*

I did not eat so much yesterday. I had to skip breakfast because i had to be early for the symposium. I had lunch, I had little rice and fish but had a banana crepe with custard filling, whipped cream and chocolate syrup *yum*, needless to say, I cannot resist crepes especially those of La Casita. I did not eat snacks. In the evening before seeing the musical Spring Awakening, I had Korean Barbecue from World of Tops, it was really good. I ate half of the rice.

After the musical I had plain hot green tea. :) I almost ordered for a hot choco but decided against it. After that, I went home and slept. :)

*yey!*

I hope I am doing well. I was not able to write on my journal though but I was able to visit dailygospel.org.

I hope I get to continue to do all these. I just woke up and took a sip off the sago't gulaman in the ref.*boo*

Update!

Okay, I just wanted to share that all that I planned to do last night, I was able to do and am so glad too!

I just lost a few minutes of sleep but I slept knowing that I did all that I promised I would do. Today promises to be a very big day and I am not scheduled to do any workout today. At the least what I can do is to watch what I eat.

I am glad though that I still fit into my black dress. I am an emcee today and it's the only thing I could wear right now *teehee*! I am suddenly wondering what I should wear to Spring Awakening. We got gala tickets...*tsk* Should have picked out another dress...

First Day Into This

Okay, let me start by confessing about my food intake today:

I had two pancakes smothered with butter and syrup this morning and then I had a Chicken McDo one piece and very little rice *haha who am I kidding?*.

After that, I did not get to eat anything until 6pm. I ate a pack of pretzels that I sequestered from my colleague *haha*. I was hungry and was not going to be able to eat until 9pm!

For dinner I had KFC leftover of my sister and coleslaw leftover of my sister which I did not enjoy but ate anyway *hello dysfunctional eater!*. I also ate a pack of nuts, a Mrs. Fields chocolate chip cookie *I could not resist! Not that I tried anyway*, Rice crackers, and a few cubes of rip mangoes.

Wow! Could I really be on a diet?! I do not want to do this consciously!

To make up for all that I ate I did my dumbbell routine and I am about to do my mat exercises.

I will also be writing a letter to the Lord and reading http://dailygospel.org.

There, I know I should be sleeping already but I do want a makeover!

Start of Something

I think at some point in our lives, we find ourselves not the person we want ourselves to be. I know I am in the position right now. I am not exactly liking what I see in the mirror every morning.

I used to swim 36 laps on an Olympic size pool before. I used to do crunches every other day faithfully. I used to run 5 Km. on the treadmill every other day. I used to do 20 minutes on the elliptical machine.

I need to lose weight.

Apart from that, I feel my spiritual life dwindling. I do not get to hear mass everyday anymore. I am not reading His Word daily anymore. I have even forgone the weekly novenas to Our Mother of Perpetual Help.

I need to reconnect with the Lord.

I used to be wiser and I had brighter outlook. Now I look beyond what I have now and it's glum. I look at the young ones, and I remember how I was.

I ask myself how I have gotten to be this way. I still do not have the answer, but one thing is for certain, I do not want to stay this way.

I need to change.

Tomorrow, like Scarlett O'Hara said, is another day. I hope it will be a different one.